#nee rants

[rosesxxandxxthorns]

I have to ask you said you've thought a lot about the muses dungeons and dragons classes please share!

Oh boy you know not what you've unleashed

The Thorns: Benjamin: Assassin Rogue multiclassed with Zealot Barbarian Darwin: Conquest Paladin Elio: Oath of Redemption Paladin BUT I think he started as an Order Cleric and changed classes after his mothers death/realizing how far he had fallen. Jenny: Wild Magic Sorcerer Kira: Glamour Bard multiclassed with Battlemaster Fighter Mia: Great Old One Warlock multiclassed with Inquisitive Rogue Ward: Mastermind Rogue Zahir: Oathbreaker Paladin Not Yet Active: Leah: Abberrant Mind Sorcerer Quinn: Enchantment Wizard

The Roses: Andrés: Scout Rogue Conrad: Oath of Crown Paladin multiclassed with Kensei Monk though I think before Raquel he was perhaps just a straight Battlerager Barbarian Frey: Trickery Cleric Hana: Scribe Wizard Leland: Eloquence Bard Raquel: Hunter Ranger Selena: Champion Fighter multiclassed with Artillerist Artificer V (this man is multiclassed out the wazoo): Master Mind Rogue multiclassed with Shadow Monk multiclassed with Bard (he only dips two levels to get jack of all trades but if he had a subclass it would be Whispers) multiclassed with Gloomstalker Ranger- do NOT ask me about the level break down. Not Yet Active: Elijah: Arcane Trickster Rogue multiclassed with Archfey Warlock Naomi: Dreams Druid

And that's just classes

[keewu]

I have such a love hate relationship with 4kota. Like I genuinely can't go look in the nanatsu no taizai tag cause there's gonna be some 4kota shit. I hate it so much but at the same time I don't. I'm happy I get more content from my favorite series, and I get to see my beloved characters more, like Gowther, Ban and Meliodas (I don't get to see Merlin though cause who knows where she is 😭🙏) and I also really like the new characters too, like Nasiens and Tristan. BUT I get also fucking sad everytime I see anything about it, cause I was so hoping for the sins at the end of the manga to be like a happy family. Maybe not raise their kids together but still be a little bit more connected. And also living happily ever after, like I don't want another plot okay I want to see the sins with their kids live a happy life. Also don't even get me started on Merlin, like why did Nakaba have to do that. Like plz, if she dies or something I'm actually bawling my eyes out and burning the copy of 4kota like bro. Also side note, THE WEIRD SHIT IN 4KOTA. How did it get worse??? Like how did it get more fucked up than it already was.

[doodle17]

Honestly after watching the trailer for the millionth time, I have decided I cannot wait 4 months without simply blowing up with pent up excitement

How am I supposed to? Am I just expected to watch the most RAW and METAL trailer ever and then just- sit here????? And think about it?????????

[gluedwithgold]

How do children just destroy everything they get their hands on!? I’ve had this specific Nee-doh fidget for weeks and it gets ruined in one evening??

The outside plastic is all stretched out and the gel inside is hard and it makes a gross crinkle sound when squeezed. I didn’t even think it was possible to ruin a Nee Doh like this?? And so fast!?

I finally find the perfect fidget to actually help me focus in classes and it gets ruined by the first person who isn’t me to grab it!?

I know this is such a small, trivial thing to get so upset over but it is still annoying. It’s an inconvenience and I can still get a new one.

I just don’t like that I HAVE to get a new one�� why can’t people just leave my stuff alone and not ruin it!? Is it really that hard to not mess with other people’s belongings?

[stressedanime]

i was sO close to falling asleep and i accidentally started thinking about jason grace and now im going through the 5 stages of grief again

[ideasarestuckinmyhead]

Since I couldn't open my requesting on Sept 27 I'm gonna open them on Oct. 4th. But I'm going to continue to do my drafts and inbox or try and get them done.

[brainrot-stitch]

Thinking of simpler times.. (rant/vent ig)

It's nice just to like

Be able to lay in bed and stare up at the ceiling and hear the crickets outside and no electronic noises. It reminds me of the 2 hurricanes that happened a few yrs back, and like I know it's fucked up to think about because it was horrible, but at the same time it was nice in a way idk how to describe well. It was miserable and hot but I was with family and didn't have to worry or stress about people or grades.. we just kinda existed for a while. I don't want more hurricanes to happen, that would be crazy, but I miss what came after.

Idk I think I've just been getting worked up over a lot of stuff recently and ik other people have it like so so much worse so I don't rlly like to complain abt it, especially in the gc, but nights like these where it's dark and quiet and calm just really get to me I guess. Nights where I can just think about everything and cry before I have to wake up the next day and repeat everything over and over and over. Every day is so bland and numb with sudden spikes of panic mixed in and at the end of the day I barely remember it. I don't remember so so much of my life that I think I should, and I don't know why I just forget. Weather something good or something bad happens I know it will eventually be faded and forgotten just as I will one day.

I'm not really big on being remembered, I've come to accept the fact of mortality and there will be a day where we will each be thought of for the last time and that is when we're truly gone. But for the short amount of time I am remembered, I don't want to be remembered like this. Like who I am and what I do and how I act right now. I don't know what I want to be remembered like, but it's not this.

There's so many issues that seem like the end of the world, that feel inescapable, and I know they're not. I feel like I'm either just being dramatic or gaslighting myself into believing they're bigger issues than they already are. Anything could send me into a spiral that night, from the smallest issue to the biggest one. Even if not, they still have an effect on my day to day life and I don't know how to fix it. And other people are always either confused or upset but they don't understand, and I don't know how to help them understand.

It's hard to care about my grades when there is literally no point and all I do is rot all day. Even if I did care I'm not smart enough to get a college tuition, and we definitely can't pay for it ourselves. They say it's gonna leave a permanent mark that people will see on my resume, but there is a good likelihood I won't make it past adulthood with the way things are going, so why should that matter. Plus it's so so hard to focus. Even if I try I get distracted or start daydreaming or The Thoughts come back. And people will say "oh just pay attention" or "just don't daydream duh" and I cant. Like I physically cannot I am unable to do so. Plus the daydreams happen at random half the time and then I'm not in school anymore I'm in another world and everything's either going really well with things I wish would happen irl or everything is going absolutely horribly and u can't stop it. They're like "just do your work it's not that hard" I hear what you're saying but you're not hearing me bro. I can't 'just do it' and nobody seems to understand that except specific strangers on the internet.

There's other issues too but I am too scared to share them on tumblr rn and I know this may seem kinda dumb but if I live on this will affect me for life but it's so so numb and I'm so SO tired allll the time and sleep never helps at all and I literally just rot all day...

Literally the only reason I take care of myself at this point is so people don't judge me and idk if that's normal or not but I'm assuming it's not.. like if I have to go somewhere ill take a shower and brush my teeth and wash my face and put on perfume n shit but if not I will have a 'self care day' but idk if it's self care if the only thing I do is rot in bed all day and only get up to go to the bathroom or (sometimes) get food/water. I sleep so much and the days all blur together and it's so so so soo bad in summer. I think I have like reverse seasonal depression bc like when it's cold and dark and raining I THRIVE like never before (even if the constant tired doesn't go away, even if everything still sucks and I still hate the people I care about the most) it's just so nice. But in summer when it's hot and miserable and humid and my ac doesn't work and you can feel the mosquitos it is such a fucking low for me idk how to even describe it. When when we get the 2 months off for summer break it's so bad bro I think that's one of my lowest points excluding being in school when it's hot. If I didn't have church I know I would go those 2 months and not take care of myself at all and ik it sounds gross and it is and I hate it but why even try if I just fucking rot on my bed like a useless ass beached whale.

The crickets are gone

I miss them 💔

I don't get why it's so hard to sleep when I'm so so fucking tired or why I rot all day or why I'm so fucking angry and irritable all the time for no reason and it sucks ass tbh. And idk why I can't fucking do things like normal people can or why I think differently or why my thoughts are so fucked up and I disappoint the people I love. I don't really wanna do this anymore, I don't wanna be here much longer, but I know I have to because if I do it it'll break them in ways they will never be able to fix, and I don't wanna be that selfish. I want to help people, I want to be confident, and I wanna make people smile. I want to be able to ignore the daydreams, to block out the characters in my head and The Thoughts that I hate so much, and I wanna stop doing shit like this when I don't deserve it.

But sometimes all you can do is find a cold, dark, and quiet place, and think for a while.

Sorry for the long post gang, see yall with a silly goofy post another day <3

[minqies]

I LOVE THIS LINEUP

[jaywritesrps]

[rosesxxandxxthorns]

AU's I'm literally always in the mood for:

Medieval Soulmate Aus Dragon Age AU's (I have thought way too much about what each muse is in a DA world) D&D type threads (I have also given way to much thought towards what class each muse would be) STAR WARS Any sort of monster/power/supernaturalish vibes (I have some idea for each for muses what they'd be. But also glad to just keep them human with your supernatural muses.) Superhero shit? (Especially if someone wants to give me hero/villain shit ugh yes plz)

Honestly I'm unlikely to say no to any au you throw at me okay? These are just the ones I'm thinking of the most. So always feel free to ask!

[maenjiro]

i really wish it was easier for me to put into words all the scenarios that my brain creates daily (if not hourly lmao) it's frustrating to say the least 😭

i thought about a new really exciting scenario with sukuna (true form sukuna bc i'm a fvcking simp) hhhhhhhh like his dumb little toy not yet being the wrecked mess he wishes you to be... and so on

+ something for wakasa but idk my brain won't cooperate 🚶‍♀️ speaking of !!! i'm gonna asjkndfhb i have this really specific hc for wakasa and then yesterday ig reels went the extra mile and i saw a reel where a BIKER was doing that exact thing i know wakasa would and if this isn't HIM just proving that is in fact canon idk what is

+ chifuyu and his massive breeding kink 👌🤸

[casperghosty]

what a day, had to go to the city to get some Important Shit done for some reason couldn't get my medical insurance card thingy idk what it is, how fun 😀 but I at least managed to get back home before 14:00 cause boy is it a hot day 🥵.

had time to even swim in the river but gell asleep on the beach and my eyes had trouble focusing for 20 minutes afterwards 👁👄👁

organized some stuff around the house cried that I can't see my parents and started to write up my expenses so I always know where my money goes.

over all not the worst day,I'm just always anxious something bad will happen that'll make me really really upset my parents aren't here 😭 it's so weird to actually grasp the reality that I am in fact an adult and it is totally normal to live without your parents.

[halteinfachmaldeinefresse]

something abt straight couples give me icks - mostly the ones represented in movies.

I always have the feeling that it's just pushing for attachment, that's not there (ofc it's "acting"). But isn't it supposed to be romantic? - it just dosen't seem that way, bc there is so much relation to; stereo types, sexualistaion (of woman) etc.. That it makes me uncomfortable.

[beast-of-mosss]

With summer around, I should really invest in anti-chafing something

[canonicallyginger]

pokemon home support for scar/vio(let) when. when when when will i get to bring my darlings into gen 9? i want them in gen 9. fuck you The Pokemon Company stop with these dumb tera raids and lET ME BRING MY BABIES TO THE NEW GEN

[kdramacrybaby]

Alright, I wasn't too hyped about Soundtrack #1, and I feel like I didn't get to see Park Hyung-sik quite enough - so Our Blooming Youth it is 👀